If you don't know me, I have always been very shy. I have stage fright even people fright sometimes. I am terribly afraid of spiders and I could barely order food in a resturant until I was around 10. I have come a long way since then.
I started out as a quiet elementary school girl in speech therapy and tonight I took on the most difficult performance that I will probably ever do. When I was standing on stage with my red corset and my leather pants I faced my fears.
The bright spotlight blinded me and my heart beat hard against my chest. As I recited my lines my body shivered perched upon red stelletos. I neared the end of my monologue and now the part came that would make or break the performance.
I remember at Berkeley when I attended Vagina Monologue's I was blown away by the woman who did "the woman who loved to make vaginas happy", not just by her courage to be on stage, but by her bravery for being able to do what she did on stage.
As I started into the the first moan I channeled my character, I seperated myself from the shy girl and became a strong woman. I put all my effort into each moan letting the laughter of the audience fuel my confidence. I thrashed about on stage, changing positions and using props. As I reached the finally I was out of breath and exhausted, but I was also different, I accomplished something I never thought I would be able to do.
A couple years ago when I first saw this performance, I said that if I was able to do this monologue on stage then I would be able to do anything. I did it...